A Change of Scenery...

I am totally enjoying this change of scenery on my vacation to Chicago. It is nice to not have to look at my house, or clean everything, or worry aboout money or a job or anything. Yes I know reality will be coming eventually, but I am truly relaxed for the first time in MONTHS. I do miss my roomate, and my Luke, and my mom. But it's nice to just sit on the couch with my computer and get online, and watch TV. Our plans this week are to go to the Zoo in chicago, and probably a few long walks in the park. I am excited to spend time with my dad!

Becca is actually taking to my dad this time instead of running away screaming and crying. It's amazing. She is being pretty good, just having a hard time sleeping because of the downstairs neighbors (as I type this, she is screaming because they woke her up by laughing so loud). I feel bad for her but she has to learn to sleep on her own.

This trip is making me realize how greatful I am to be a mother and have my precious baby girl, even though she gets to my last nerve sometimes. Even though getting pregnant with her was a mistake, she really turned my life around in a way and made me more responisble for myself because I have to be responsible for her. I have to provide her with things. I have to teach her things. Sometimes it gets tedious. But I wouldn't change it for anything (as she still screams). Babies are such a precious gift, and I and can't wait until I can have other one...WITH THE RIGHT PERSON SO WE CAN RAISE THE CHILD TOGETHER!

PROUD SISTER

My brother graduated from HS yesterday and I am so proud of him!!! After everything we've been through in our lives the last couple years, he still managed to push through and get there and now he can move on in life and do what he wants to do!!!

The job is...

going great!! Larry's boss set a goal of 3 life appts set up per day... I set up 6 so far today and hope to get 1 more before I leave in the next hour. Life has been pretty average lately. Mom is moving back into the house because her boyfriend (ex boyfriend...?) is being a douchebag. I am also concerned about her behavior because she is acting like she was when she was doing not so good things before Becca was born. And you can bet that if she is, she will never see Becca again. I am not putting her through that, and I will not have Becca go through what I went through. My mom is the sole reason I have never tried any drugs and refuse to drink hard core, because I could never put my daughter through all the things I've dealt with. And it sucks to say that I barely trust her anymore, but she's late for everything and can't keep track of time, she is always coming up with excuses for why she can't do this or that. I just can't stand it anymore.

My brother will (hopefully) be graduating in a couple weeks, and my dad and his fiancee will be down for the occasion. I am thouroughly excited about this. After they go home, the next week we will be going up to visit them in Chicago and that makes me SUPER excited because I need a vacation BADLY. I have also been spending more time with my birth dad and my brother and sister from him, who are very excited for me to be in their lives...(Destniy more than Little Kevin of course, he already has a sister, he wants a brother, and I think Becca annoys him. He's a loner like my other brother).

My friend Meghan just moved in for the summer, we are uber excited to be rooming together and can't wait to see what fun this summer brings. As for Becca.... she is growing up so much suddenly, it's like I blinked and she went from this baby I was worried was falling behind in development and then WHAM she says partial sentences and is asking for things instead of screaming. She still mostly screams for things but when I tell her to use her big girl words I get "drink, now" and "i want" Her new favorite words are "baby" "bubbles" and "BUS" and her uncles name "effy" (jeffy)

I can't wait to see how much she grows up by her second birthday, it seems like it all goes by so fast. I am also missing my bestie and Lukey-pie a lot, they moved 1,000 miles away to Virginia, and it really sucks to see my little nephew growing up in pictures instead of in front of me, but I'm sure she feels the same about Becca.